My tooth

Goddammit! >.< My tooth seriusly hurt
and its not just any tooth its the one i neeed surgery to get removed
and thers just something about getting cut open in my mouth
that i dont like the idea about... Not a lot scares me when it comes
to sutch things but dentists sure as hell is one of them x.x
but i think doing the next few days i will get used to the pain.
As a great quote once siad:
Master Chief John Urgayle: Pain is your friend, your ally, it will tell you when you are seriously injured, it will keep you awake and angry, and remind you to finish the job and get the hell home. But you know the best thing about pain?
Lt. Jordan O'Neil: Don't know!
Master Chief John Urgayle: It lets you know you're not dead yet!

I know its from a movie but its a good quote anyways
But lately i realised some things that can't keep on going
like they do, some things must change... And they will..
in a little time they will change, over time they will change even more..
And i will be back to square one where i started before all the feelings
came in to play 3 years ago...
For those who knows me very well shoud know what im on about...

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Gloves.....

You know for some reason my gloves looks like
i have been in a damm knife fight, all slized and torn
kinda reminds me of my self lately, of how i feel tbh.

Yesterday a girl in my class was like
"where the hell do you get all those money from?"
Why the hell is evryone so curios about that?
If i make money its my buissness how i make them
people shoudent ask since they dont like the truth
always. they might think they do but they really dont

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Can't Smile Without You

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything

You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm goin' through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who'da believed that you were part of a dream?
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything

You see, I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm goin' through
I just can't smile without you

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well I'm finding it hard leavin' your love behind me

And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything

You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm goin' through
I just can't smile without you...

Wolf Chapter 1

I know i siad i woud show you first nicole :) but i kinda forgot last night
so im just gonna poste it here now and i hope you will tell me what you think

The boy briefly stopped up to catch his breath, but as soon as he heard the howl of the beast not far from him he knew he had to keep going if he wanted to live for a few more hours..
He starts running agin he feels his heart pulsing, it feels like it will jump out his throat any moment but it doesn’t matter he has to keep going, he falls down when he trips over a rock that sticks up the ground….
He feels a sharp pain in his leg he doesn’t want to look down as he feels the blood running down his leg already, he gets up agin and feels that he is having a harder time standing on it but it doesn’t matter.
He knows if he doesn’t start moving agin he will be dead either way, so he starts moving aging not as fast as before but atleast he keeps on going for a little wile agin.
But it dident matter soon he heard the growling behind him even closer, he tryed to run faster but his weakend body and wounded leg woudent allow him to, a second after the creature is over him, he feels how the fangs of the beast gets a firm hold on his right shoulder and he screams out in pain.
He struggles and tryes to get free but its no use as the beast got a firm grip in him, and in terror he realizes that he his time is over, not by old age neither any heroic deed, but at the hands of this beast, and then he feels the beasts teeth rip up his throat and everything goes black……..

Early next morning in a small town nearby a young boy wakes up in a barn and to his horror he notices he is covered in blood, what horrors might have happened last night he wonders as he feels a strong metallic taste in his mouth and breaths heavily so he won’t pass out…
A little after he slowly gets up from the hay and sneaks outside to wash off the blood from his face and body, feeling a pain in his chest as his heart was trying to jump out his mouth it beating so fast... So hard and then he is overwhelmed by this new feeling for him, as if he had gotten stronger or if something had changed him since yesterday when he went to sleep…
He sneaks home and finds some cloth, luckily the house isn’t far away from where he had woken up but on his way home he starts to think about how he possibly coud have ended up in a place like that doing that night and where all the blood might had come from? All questions he has no idea about but can’t help to wonder still.
He manages to sneak in his parents’ house and in to his own room without anyone noticing and snuggles in to his own bed where he calmly falls asleep hopeing to get a little clarity and peace for a wile at least. A few hours later his mom comes in and wakes him up by whispering in his ear that it’s time to wake up, and mumbles “good morning mom” with a cute smile on his face, and she kissed him on his head saying “slept well?” And he nods sleepy and sits up covering his eyes from the sunlight as she leaves the room to go make lunch for the family.

Only Skin

This morning wile waiting for the buss ther was a
litle girl, shes the sister to a friend of mine acturly..
But it made me think, woudent you wish you coud
turn back time sometimes? Just go back and be a
child agin? Be innocent once agin without all
the bad things you have seen or experinced?
I really think evryone has been thinking that
at times, just be innocent once agin in your life.
I can honnestly say i woudent, no matter what
has happend in my life im acturly kinda happy
it did as i have learned things from it no matter what
If you get hurt, you learn to deal with pain.
If you get heartbroken you learn to cry and heal agin
If you fall in love you learn to show feelings to oathers
If you lose people you learn about sorrow and life

So no matter what i woudnet change anything i have
learned in the school we can call life :) as they are all
valid things people need to know to live in this world

scrape your knee; it is only skin


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Logic vs fate vs feelings?

Today when i had my tv on ther was acturly some
teen romantic kinda series called Felicity...
And wile watching i started thinking if thers
sutch a thing as fate?
Shoud we depend on logic?
shoud we depend on fate?
shoud we depend on feelings?

Its basicly what shoud we depend on it life mostly?
Thers love that can be the best or the worste thing in life
depending on with who and how it happends..
And maybe thers fate? Maybe some people are fated to
be hurt and betrayed by evryone around them their life?
But for what i wonder.. Maybe thers no sutch thing as fate...
Maybe some people are just really unlucky when it comes
to things in life around oather people, maybe some shoud
stick to studying and working on makeing some things better
for oather people and just not worry at all about anything romantic.
I know some people might think i sound "emo" beocous of this
but its not ment to, its ment to be realistic and logical about
not worrying about love or feelings at all, but focus on life insted...
And it seems most people handle things diffrently some people
get emotional when they are around people they love...
Some get logical and tell them self that its all just passing things.
And some might think its fate :), Truth be told is that it dosent
really truely matter what you think it is, it matters that your partner
accepts how you react and that you accept how they react.. They might
get scared, sad, mad, happy or strange... What matters is that you stick
by them :) support them the best you can in any way posserbel really
Dont get mad at them for being them self.... Give them time to ajust as
they might never have truely experinced something sutch as that..
Life is an amazing thing :) we can all experince pain at times :)
and most of us lives with it tho it hurts..
And im a person who well i belive in fate on some points :)
If 2 people are fated to be together they will be some day 1 day or 100 years.
On oather points in dependent on logic, Fights, Friends, school or games.
And last feelings is wired in to a lot of things all depending on who and what :)

So Life is a funny things and people related to it aswell with those 3 things
combined humans becomes a funny thing really....
Thers more i wanted to say no doubt but i forgot it right now :/

So all i can say is goodbye for now And try and think how you are?

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Skipping school?

Today i decided to skip school
Im no doubt gonna get in a HUGE arguement
But you know what? Its worth it for staying in school
Since i have about 100 math assigments i need to finish
Thats 3 papers and besides that 50 pages i need to read
And the only thing i woud be missing out on is Danish and English
And when i clearly dont need either of them i geussed
that i might aswell stay home and study for the
"Greater Good" lol nah really it seems
like the best and most logical choice today
How oather people might see it is up to them
But its my choice when it comes down to it
in the end and only me it will backfire on
So no one shoud have an issue with it really?

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Art of blocking?!

You know if your acturly gonna block someone
avoid them ignore them etc.
The first thing you need to keep in mind is
Do it correctly..... Msn,Skype,Aim,Yahoo
all adresses that linkes the 2 of you together...
If you have shared phone numbers turn off your
phone if you dont wish to talk to them...
But dont come around acting like you want to
Like you want to talk or talk about things
As thats a plain cruel thing to do to people
Show some pride! Dont be a jerk!

Always do what your doing perfect if posserbel...

And a Quote from Al pacino in Heat

"Don't waste my motherfucking time"

But i aint trusting that guy agin

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School!

God dammit school sucked today!
The wireless internet were down -.-''
So i coudent read or anything when i dident have
things to do but atleast i got some stuff written in "Wolf"
a small novell im working on makeing :) or a short story
you can decide what you want to call it i just call it fun *^_^*
I might poste it as soon as i have written a little more to it :)
Tho im not sure how good it is, it dosent matter a lot afterall

Then ther was 2 girls omg i just wanted to throw something at
them they were so annoying!!! They always are but today more
then normal really. They ended up talking about some girl who
had plastic surgery done to her becous she thouth she was flat
chested.... Honnestly i dont get why a girl has to have big boobs?
I prefer them smaller tbh... Not too big! And then one of them
was like well maybe she shoud get a liposuction... And shes already
skinny.. what more woud ther be to suck away? her ass? xD
So i decided to skip school and go home agin since i wasent feeling well

And on my way home i dozed off and had this strangest dream xD
It was on my blog and nicole presented me with a black box
and it being hafe open with a red and pink ribbon sticking out of it
and when i opend it ther was a pink cupcake in it O.o
it just proves CUPCAKES RULES!... Really the strangest dream ever lol

And it was only like a 5min doze tops so its not a real dream geuss im
just hooked on cupcakes X.x

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Hmm?

A wile ago i was talking to one of my closest friends Nicole
and since i was wondering how she saw me and how i was
i simply asked her and here is what she siad:

"And you're very positive, mostly. If you get upset, which isn't that often, you become really upset.
And you care deeply for the ones you like, and not at all for the ones you don't"

I geuss im not that complicated always :) as she is no doubt the one
who knows me very best in the world i might think :)

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Friends

Well friends are a funny things...
And for some people building friendships are even stranger...
IF you need to build a friendship or rebuild one with a friend
its something both have to give to not just one of them...
thers always things that will be and ther wont be...

But no matter what thers always gonna be close ones that supports you
Nicole: Thanks sweety for always staying by my side and slapping me when i need it
Polly: Your always cheering me up and never judgeing me :)
Jessica: you never keep things from me and your always honnest yet gentle :)
Jen: Your my twin thers not a lot to say but Your like my long lost sister :)
Jay: my super cute bi friend :D alwayz had fun with you ^-^

And a lot of more people :)Thanks guys for supporting me in hard and good times


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Deuces

Whats life for you?
What matters for you?
This is something we shoud all ask out self at times
What we want with life?... What we are willing to do to get it
And if evrything fucks up that we have a backup plan...

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Deuces is wild, this is pitty pat
Two-two, with the triple fat goose
You, you ain't never placed a bigger bet
You, you ain't never seen a bigger threat

Deuces is wild, getting milli' off a bag of illy
Iced out, on the sand like a chilly willy
You, you ain't never placed a bigger bet
Deuces is wild, this a triple threat

In the world that's been frozen, they come be Achozen
Rising from the dead, over throw the opposing
Forces of evil, controlling our people
Deuces is wild, and the wisdom is lethal

4-22, stomping through, I can see you
Strike a match, like the sun, watch the preview
Life is a game, play war, don't refuse to
Three is the few, and life we are true too

This is how I'm fully taught, fuck what you really thought
Nine milli' pops ya top, silly pop
Like your colon cap, ice like the polar cap
Jar of Israeli drop, so clash and feel me rap
Yo phantom power, my answer will strike the power
The truth is of what you write, and what ya'll recite the power
Is how I spit, my night to this very time, an hour
with just a spec, of light, we shine, shine, shine, shine, shine

Must be Achozen...
Must be Achozen...
Deuces is wild, this is pitty pat
Deuces is wild, this is pitty pat

You a force, I can see right through you
We Achozen, we come here to free you
So you can live in this world like we do
Achozen few from the outclassed people

Butterfly

Wonderful butterflys fly around her bed
Red, blue, green.. all the colors of the rainbow
they cover her skin makes her look like something
truely special a one of a kind person in this world......

I wonder sometimes why things are like they are?
Why i at times dwell at the past?
Think about how things might have been
Insted of thinking about what is....
And not just be happy with what happend

Hmm i suppose its becous we are humans
we all want things sometimes and if they
arnt like we wanted them to be we want
something els? something more....
I wonder if people will ever change?!?


Why do I miss someone
I never met, with bated breath I lay
Seawinds brought her to me
A butterfly, mere one-day miracle of life
And all the poetry in the world
Finally makes sense to me

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Life?

Life is like a tree
we are all born from the same seed
we live and grow...
At times we get cuts and bruces
but they heal as long as we can manage to get the nail out
We cant always so it stayes in us but we still learn to live
and we keep on growing until the day our roots die and
we die with them as its the way of life...
Whats good about life is that we sometimes cast off pods
of seed and new trees will group up around us and its wonderful
we learn to live with whatever might happend to us if we are strong
So life is like a tree a wonderful one we all cherrish to the end.....


~

1+1= 6

Wow what a night......
Its been a long time since i had anything that good
Girls
Alcohol
Pot
Friends
What more can you ask really?
Well what was! was good *^-^*
Got in to my friends place laughed a lot
had a lot to drink and a pizza and a lot of compliments
went on to a nother friends place at his own pub...
and then down to a nother pub after that where we
had even more to drink had some pot and partyed like never before
also it seems what i finaly found a way to move to copehagen
as a girl i know seems to want to move ther aswell so we talked about getting a
fairly big one and shareing it, shareing the rent etc so it will be good no doubt...
Not sure what els to say so to finish it heres a quote *^.^*

From the movie savannah 1991..
Her: "Please take me with you"
Him: "Now i know why you alwayz seem so sad"

Sutch a sweet movie :)

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I think i might be a little stupid at times

Tonight i realised how stupid i can be about common things oathers take for granted
I can realise things no one thinks about, think about the strangest things ther are
and yet never understand why some things are the way they are...

Take for an example tonight what i realised about realtionships -.-''
or well it wasent tonight it was yesterday or so....
For a relationship to work you need to show your partner from the start
who you are, dont try and be who you think they want you to be but just your self
this is the key to a long term relationship im sure. For your partner to accept who
you really are from the first moment, if they want you to be like that they will take you
if they dont like that way you wont get hurt nearly as mutch as you realise that they arnt
the one for you.... So be your self and not some mirror immage of what someone els might want
or like..

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Dammit!

Damm for once i woud like for my family acturly to decide
to support me in my own choices -.- .....
The simple fact that our free will is the only thing no one
will ever be abel to take away from us in this world is a
interesting thing to think about we decide what we want
out from the way we think and consider things....
And yet you can alwayz be effected by small things or suggestions
in your life, from people you know, things you read or watch...
A person can also have hobbys however this does not mean that
its something they wish to work with for the rest of their life?

People are interesting they always have and always will be i suppose
Thers diffrent kind of people however...... And i suppose that thers
always a risk opening up to people aswell in the fear of getting hurt.

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The cage

I feel it rippes my soul
the chains tighten as
the best stuggles to
get free. it growls in
anger trying to take over
a constant struggle of
peace and anger
Good and evil
the cage shatters and
the chains breakes
as the beast surfaces
and i release my sanity
for a short moment before
the blood spills to the ground
and a battle of minds start once agin