I wonder

Hm i wonder if you still stalk my blogg?
I wonder how you are.
I wonder what your doing
I wonder if you wanna talk
I wonder a lot really.
I hope things work out no matter what

Poem

I, who was born to die
shall live,
that the world of animals
and the world of men
may come together.
I shall live.

~Inuit Legend

F for Future

F for Free
U for Unclear
T for Trying
U for Us
R for Recalling
E for Evolution
FUTURE

I found the dorm i want, In the heart of Copenhagen...
Its a real cozy place, small with a nice little window,
its cheap aswell around 2000 DKR, you share a kichen
but i like that a lot acturly as in what els woud the meaning
of living in a dorm? I think i woud love that place acturly,
Tho it woud only be for well hmmhm atleast 2 years xD
Thers all kinda people ther aparently, parents, young etc.
Who knows what life and the future will bring :)
Who knows who will be in my life
Who knows what will happend :)
Time will tell as its always been siad

And here last but not least is a pic of the apartment :)

Silverflame

This morning for the first real time in a long time
i smiled... God i feel so happy, so free so great!.
Its a feeling i cant rember when since i last felt,
being happy for no reason at all, just loveing life
heres a little poem i wrote with a special girl in mind
Im sure you can geuss as i told you about it yesterday

Kom hid, Kom hid du smukke fugl
Mens vandet drypper fra himlen blå
Så smuk, så smuk den lille fugl på grenen der
Sølv flammen brænder i natten så blå
Kom hid, Kom hid du smukke fugl
Lad vandet dryppe på dine vinger kom blot til mig
Lad natten skjule dig så du altid er sikker
Lad dagen omfavne dig som jeg ville og tørre dine vinger
Kom hid, Kom hid du smukke fugl
Lad livet kysse dit smukke næb
Lad vinden bære dine vinger som jeg ville
Så vær min, Vær fri, Vær dig selv du lille fugl

Shadow On The Wall

Todays weather is like my mood its been like that lately
or perhaps its my mood thats like the weather?
I dont know really. Nor does it matter tbh, today is
shitty weather and my mood isent too good either...
Thers acturly one song that describes how i feel perfectly,
I wish i had stayed home today to be left alone and not
bothered by any sutch things as i will today... my god
why dident i stay home -.-''
My knee is busted agin, my mood is down, and i dident
get the support i needed yesterday from the ones i needed it from......

Pilgrimage

I belive that all humans in one way or a nother once in their life
has a Pilgrimage.... Its diffrent for each person that lives on
this earth how theirs is and what they wish to gain by it...
truth is i have been thinking about takeing one... Im just not
sure yet and as thers long till my holiday i shoud make up
my mind by then. if not now then some other time in my life
im sure of it

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you know

You know, We always say "Time will tell" :) It most likely will
But sometimes ther has to be done things about it, fresh starts
and so on, as in deleteing old things to clear the air, notting to
keep the old ties but create new ones insted. Ofcouse you cant
forget whats happend but what you can do is try and bring in
a future where neither worry about it :) And thats what i have done
Im sure time tells, we all just have to wait and see
So this is me getting a clean start with you if you want to?
I hope you do. No past Only future :)
So will you?

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Small town city

Small town city...................
Good song

I read this amazing poem in school
its danish so i cant really translate it correctly
its about a regular man or well woman aswell dosent matter
they try and blend in, they dont want to show emotions they
dont want to fight but just ajust... Ironicly i used to want that
I used to want to be a robot, a regular man a part of the
mindless masses that swarm this earth like sheeps on a field
I havent even thouth of it lately until nicole pointed it out to me
that i used to be like that, more then others normaly woud like to.
And it made me think.... Ya its true i did used to be like that...
I wanted to blend in and not be noticed, just float along with the
other masses of people in this life.... No more tho....
I feel like im starting to live for the first time in my life,
I wont try and be a part of a black mass anymore, its not how it is..

Im me
I will let my actions define who i am
I will let my music define who i am
I will be alive
I will be myself

Manners

As most people know i see manners as a big thing
and im amazed how the simplest manners of people
are decaying and at the rate that its decaying.
Is it really that strange for guys to take a step
back and let a girl walk out the door first or let
a older woman have your seat? I have never seen it
before, yet for some reason tho i see it as a common thing
This morning i was getting in the buss, ther was a girl next
to me and i let her walk in first, i sat down when i was about
to get off the buss a older woman was getting out so the girl
at the window coud get off, i took a step and motioned with my
hand that she coud get out first, then the older woman was standing
back so i coud pass but i motioned for her to go first and then i stepped out
The girl for some reason smiled like a ray of sun for a simple thing as that
and it made me think, Is it really sutch a rare thing? for a guy to show manners
Is it something people acturly want or dont they care about it at all?
And in the future will it be those with manners who are seen as strange and
outcasts over those who wants to be first no matter the price or manners?
Life is a curios thing indeed and as it devlopes it dosent get easyer :)

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Blood

So this morning i decided to sleep in late
what a curios choice now that i think of it
i missed the frist buss i was suppose to
take, then fine i went home agin and took the
next one and geuss who i ran in to... For those
who know me hey know some of my history with
my so called brother and the blood thats between us
well i ran in to him, and no blood was spilled belive it
or not :) we talked and aparently according to him
she is the one who lied about haveing siad anything like that
i dont really care right now, im not interested in spilling
blood and getting in a fight thats pointless, besides the guy
looked like he was shitting nails when he saw me....

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Perfume

Hmpf! What is it with girls that are takeing
showers in perfume? It makes me want to
throw up seriusly! its like standing next
to a toxic cloude of death! Do they think
guys consider it sexy or something like that?
im not saying a girl shoud smell like a brute
that hasent showered ever but geez thers no
reason to make them self in to a cloude of perfume

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Strange

Life is a strange thing no matter how you twist and turn it
things i find easy gets booring for me and i lose interest.
things thats locked in place bore me and i stop it all.
i need freedom more then others perhaps.
i suppose thats why i love writeing and makeing music
it gives me a freedom over what i wish to accomplish
it allowes me to push my limits and to create something
i can feel proude of, and if i dont like it i simply dont have
to show anyone at all but tug it away for my soul to keep
and gain wisdom from it...
School is advanceing as it shoud better even i suppose
as my teacher shows great support for my writeing and
even more so to my delopment within it and she wishes
for my to learn more then i already know so its a nice
new feeling......

On the personal levl i wont talk as i suppose its true
that some people are blessed in love and some in games
geuss what im blessed in?

Goodbye

Goodbye evryone
its simple im going away for a wile
i dont know when i will be back
or what will happend in the time im gone
i dont know if i will update the blog or not
depends on if i have time. i might or i might not
for most people it shoudent matter at all either

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The movie "Igby goes down" is an amazing movie
Its a impressive movie, with a interesting view of
life... About love,hate, happyness, missery , death.
Evry good thing a movie shoud have and it leaves
you constatly thinking and wondering.
I can suggest evryone i know to watch this movie
it might be one of the most impressive ones i know.

We all live for the simple goal to die...
Thats the only thing we know for sure.
Evry thing between those 2 points will
always be a mystery for evry human.

Lately i have felt rather odd i must say
Not sure if im happy or sad...
Feeling a bit like a idiot i must say
What matters? Does this matter?

I wonder how the future will be
and i wonder why i worry so mutch
about trivial things sutch as that
and other stupid small things in life

So im just gonna go back to writeing
i think and try not to think about whats
happend in the past, or what will happend
in the future as i clearly must be a idiot x.x

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Midnight~

What a wonderful moon, what a wonderful sun
We live as we want and things cant be undone.
It dosent matter who where or what as long as
we stay true to who we are and where we come from.
Woud it matter to you? Woud it matter to me?
Woud it matter if the night started where a nother
one ended?
I think at times it needed to take a step back and look
at the greater picture to get a feel for things..
As im gonna focus more of my writeing i think
and my music, aswell as school :)
since i saw a school i think i woud like most likely if i
coud ever get in to it that is but only time will tell :)

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Late

Lol late for school tho i got to sleep 2 houres in since english was
called off becous the teacher was sick... Im kinda looking forward
to going to school however since i enjoy spending my time ther
writeing acturly. It takes my mind off things and off people, and
allowes me to focus on things that i shoud over silly things sutch
as emotions... Maybe i shoud do what evryone tells me to and just
stop talking at all to her? but then agin i dont know why....

and for the first time a personal message that you can feel free
to reply to here or on msn or not at all if thats the case...

Rika dont you think its a little strange that you say
you like talking to me about things that people normaly
woudent talk about, Freedom, Religion or other things
that requires people to have an open mind to really understand
and then you never say a word?you even siad that you
dident have anything to say to me some time ago, but
you wanted us to not block each other? Things like this
goes aginst my logical sens really its like saying 1+1=3
so if you want to acturly talk then you shoud say hi
sometimes aswell insted of letting me say hi, as that
is what people normaly do if they acturly want to talk.

And a last overall message to evryone....
Its common sens that if you talk to someone
you say goodbye before you leave or log off
anything els is just plain rude and lack of manners
therfor i suggest people think aboutt this for a little
and ask your self if your a rude person or not?

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Meh

Thats a word thats not a word really but its suited for a lot of things
Meh... Today or maybe the last 24 houres has been Meh
I was suggested by my teacher to considering becoming a writer
as aparently i have a talent for it according to her and some friends
But Concrete Jungle will decide that If it becomes good and i get a A+
i will consider it as more then a childish thing If not i will move on to
something els and put it away as other things...
Thers a lot more i coud say about things thats happend
About people i suppose but i decide not to..

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26 days later

Hmm tonight i saw a interesting quote on msn from a guy i know saying:
"The silence between two people who love eachother is worth more than a thousand words."
Its a interesting quote i have to say.... I wonder if you can really say its true tho?
As i think i have experinced it maybe i woud have to say its true.
Just becous 2 people dont say anything dosent mean that they have to.
Its a interesting thing indeed aslong as its not always silence.....

But i have to say after what happend last time with a girl i liked
im just gonna stay away from sutch things as i dont want to get hurt
once agin not right now atleast since i dont think she knows how it felt...
Past is past and we learn from it no matter how we see it and we are
effected by sutch things naturaly.....

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The Midterm

Well today we had our first Midterm exam
a english one. It was more or less about Freedom
so it was a easy supject and after 4 houres i had
a 6 pages essay with 2509 words so overall
i think it might have been a good exams project
but i will have to wait some time before i will acturly know :)

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What a day

What a day it has been today..
School was just amazing really
We had a lot of interesting descussions
about past history and human development
and it turned in to a now vs then kinda talk
and religion. it was truely amazing to see and do
Then well since i was an idiot and dident sleep last
night i wasent feeling good so i went home early....
And i had this strange dream with Rika in it lol,
Why im not sure but it was interesting...
But one of the top points of my day was talking to
Christy, we had a very enjoyerbel day and talked
a lot together about evrything more or less....
Past, current and future... And she gave me the
most amazing music! :D Im just so hooked on a song
called Bedshaped! its amazing really...

Also from those who read my blog knows that im
currently working on my writeing project Wolf
Well i as you know showed my teacher Chapter 1
last week and was waiting for a reply from her.
and then today in school i simply asked her if she
had read it? and she had, and aparently im the 3 one
in 35 years that she has suggested to write a story
for my finishing exams project, the one that will
decide my final grade.. And i even started thinking
about what to write today.. I have a small idea now
but its still a work in progress afterall. im gonna
make updates here as i go along with it :) even translate
some of it if people want me to as it has to be in danish sigh

Thers more i shoud write im sure but i cant recall anything

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AfterWorld

Wow I have just seen the most amazing thing ever
A story/ Picture Show Called Afterworld.
Its about the story after the world as we know it
and the social status decays after some incident that
leaves the world shattered..... Its a new type i have
never ever seen before and i find it interesting acturly
So im gonna have to get it so i can watch the last ones :)
But it acturly gives you something to think about.
And knowing people i have no doubt that if something
happend our currently world woud decay and we humans
woud devolve more then we already are....
Think about it? We evolve on some points and devolve at
oather points, its human nature im sure but i still find it strange

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Stupid taxes

Hmh I find it desturbing that our current goverment
wishes to raise taxes by a nother 20% on some products
Sutch a tobacco and grees items, butter, cookies etc
And then even doing the current crisis, people are already
struggeling with some things bills etc.
Im quite curios however how things will evolve.
I understand why they wish to do so but i however think
its a bad time to do it right now as it will effect a lot of people
Working class mostly.....
But then agin it might teach people a lesson aswell
Time will tell

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....

This morning i felt really strange,
i felt sad but happy at the same time
as a feeling of senslessness if you
wish to call that. And i suppose that
it might have something to do with the
rather confused look my teacher gave
me yesterday when she asked me why
i was only writeing in english and not
danish, well the reason for that is
simple, im better in it and i think
it sounds better, allowes more words
i suppose you can say atleast for me.
Is this what the world has comed to?
To a generation whos mother laungage
is replaced by not their own but by
a global one sutch as english or some
oather contry? For the reason to be
more global and for more people to
understand a simple message. And if
so shoud we be worryed about sutch a
trivial thing? Or isent it trivial at
all?Also what might she say about the
short story i send her last night, or
well it was the first chapter in one
the one called "Wolf" Will she like it?
Will she hate it? Or maybe i shoudent even
care about what she thinks as it....?

But it seems no matter what my music
is like a soothing tidalwave that rushes
over me and takes away all my worrys and
all my sorrows in a single rush on coldness.

Tonight im for some reason feeling kinda down
kinda sad for no reason at all, and its killing me
i shoud feel happy yet i dont, i have been writeing
in my Wolf Chapter 2 all day and its been comeing
along nicely but it feel like the further i develop the
story the stranger i feel, its like im putting some of
my self in to that story and after a day like today
i just feel lost in darkness..... it makes me feel depressed
That thers no light right now, not even a smal hint of it...
I wonder a lot what i shoud do to feel better but notting
comes to mind at all except that maybe i shoud just keep
writeing it and see where it takes me, if it woud make me
feel better, or maybe even worse only time will tell i suppose..

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Truth

Its true indeed whats siad about people
That we find the truth in the darkest houre
when we feel lost and in despair we offen
find things that are very true to who we are
and what we must do to move forward in life
We all feel lost at times, we walk in darkness as
a lost child, a blind person trying to find our way
Truth be told i think i found my way today
What i need to do before i do anything els in life.
And after talking to Nicole it all feels a little more
Well i feel more relaxed about evrything :)

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Humpf

Right now we acturly have about poems
and i think about considering to tell
that i write poetry but no one here
woud understand why, or surely belive
that it woud be true even if i decided
to show them some i dont think they woud
understand the real meaning to them as
they are not the normal type people read
And people here dosent even understand the
most simple poems we read here, Sigh i just
cant understand how simple things sutch as
this can be hard to understand for people.

Great!
She told us for tomorrow we have to write
a poem about Love..... Im gonna fail that as i
wont do it i refuse to tbh.. its something i prefer
to want to forgot about really, and even if i did
its not anything i woud wish to read for the class
standing in front of them reading from something
thats very personal just feels like something
they dont deserv to be a part of.....

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siigh

Hmm today when i went to the dentist, i got a tooth pulled
it was a new dentist i hadent met before, and as some know
i hate dentists and they scare the shit out of me but however
insted of getting antibiotic he siad "Why dont we just pull it out now"
And i was like hmm sure why not for once, and i realised
i have to stop being sutch a bitch at times, stop complaining about things
Shut up and take the pain as it comes. Work more on things i want
Things i know i can stick to, and currently that is not school!
I stopped careing what people think a wile ago after something that happend...

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Sigh

Evrything is just going great lately...... Not
I feel like sutch a idiot tbh. i wonder if she has any idea
how it feels to feel this for someone and not being abel to do anything
and when the feelings arnt the same aginst you dosent make it easyer at all
Then thers school.... And now my tooth.. I wonder what els coud go wrong?
Something i bet x.x right now im not sure what that posserbly coud be.....
So once agin i almost wonder if thers a reason for sutch things?
For being unlucky your entire life
Im really not sure what i shoud do lately...
What i shoud do in the future or what i shoudent do, i mean does it realy matter in the end?

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