hellfire

God right now it feels like my blood is on fire
i feel so mad for some reason, why idk
like my blood is boiling....
i seriusly need to get my emotions under controle
i need to sort things out, why does it bother me so
mutch? I cant controle what will happend but it botheres
me still, like sand running out of my hands thats how it feels
i hate it... I Hate it! geez why does it really bother me so mutch x.x
why does it effect me and makes me spin out of controle...
things will never be the same agin tho i at times wish they woud.

...Things Things

Hmpf most girls are sluts
they might act better then guys but are
in the end the same really...
This might piss of some people i know
but thats how it is then, why shoud i
keep a cloak around who i am? and
what i think of others?, If a girl or a guy
wants my respect its something they must earn
and prove they are either proude of who and what
they do or prove they arnt that way...
So far i havent met a girl who can prove it wrong....
and only few who has been abel to earn my respect.

Im gonna stop hideing who i am, if people cant deal
with who i am and where i come from its their issue
NOT mine... If people think i lie they can think that
Tho im NEVER a lier unless it has been to avoid hurting
someone i care about... so Whatever to most people!

~

1+1=22

1 man 1 woman = a boy thats now 22 aka me xD
god last night i got so drunk you woudent belive it
i coud barely walk x.X but i suppose thats what happends
when you drink drink drink go out throw up and then go back
and drink some more lol and i cant really rember a lot
but it feels like a new breath of air a cold shower of clarity
i feel that i see more clearly now
The girl i thouth i hated for a wile and still loved
i realize now i dont hate her the least but i am in love with her
maybe i shoudent be but to use a quote from save the last dance
"You don't chose who you love, your not suppose to.."
Its true we can't chose it tho we at times wish we coud but i
just don't think she has any kinda emotions for me not anymore
Time tells and people say Time heals all wounds tho thats not true

atleast its my birthday tho im not sure if thats a good or bad thing lol

Suicide

hn suicide is a strange thing
thers so mutch to think about
how, why etc
thers so many ways
and last but not least the normal questions people ask them self
Will anyone notice im gone?
Will anyone care about it?
Will anyone miss me?

~

Coco

Coco De Mer<3
Thers not anything els to say!

and now i bring you



Do you understand it?