pf

Hm have anyone ever considered that we at times
acturly do things to hurt the ones we care deeply
about on purpose? Say things we know they will hate
Or things that will hurt them in some way?...
I think i do this acturly.. Why im really not sure
i suppose it might be becous its easyer then to be honnest
about evrything :/ and a lot easyer then to be honnest about emotions.
no one i perfect, and i sure as hell am far from it...
But its how i act at times..

A nother thing is...
I just watched "Hanging with the homeboys"
And thers something that i could relate to.
A guy who was in love with this girl and saw her
so fine and pure....
then he was out with the "boys" and they went in to this
peep show with the 3 friends, and he saw the girl he was
in love with was in that peepshow being fucked by a nother man..
I have tryed that. Not exactly that but the whole thing about
thinking someone might acturly be special, and then they are the
same as evryone els. but a nother thing is true that Maybe
i shoudent think any girl is special, as it normaly ends up with
a disapointment.... So whatever...

Fuck the world...