Fact of life.

Friends are like women: when put to the test, the goods often prove defective.

Sweet

Woot i have 3 apartments lined up a

33,4m =270 Euro
31m = 242 Euro
20m =270 Euro
so life is good once agin

~Mickey

Soo

So yes we are not friends, thats made clear by you.
And Why talk then? yes if your wondering i
have removed you from msn.
If you acturly want to talk you have my blog, and can ask there
i wasent trying to do anything tonight but simply talk
and aparently you had no interest in that at all....

And you know its you this is for rika.

The hardest question in my life.

I ironicly got the hardest question in my life from a anime,
maybe not the question but it made me ask my self the question
Anyone can ask Whats your dream, few however ask more then just that
If someone asked whats your dreams in life? 90% of all people would say " to do what i love to do"
I suppose this is a well correct question however what is it you love to do?
I can't honnestly answer that without lieing, i can't answer sutch a thing that for some people
seems no doubt ironicly simple, for me it feels like the most complex in life.
As if someone asked you, whats the meaning of life. But the last 24 houres have made me ask a lot of questions for my self. now i just have to try and find a few of the answer if i posserbly can

~Mickey

Hm what to do with the future.

I honestly don’t know what i should do, in a way i should cut all connections with her, in a another way I don’t want that, i just wish things at least our friendship would get back together but at this point I’m really not sure it will or ever can, i know it can’t as long as I’m not over you.

I’m sure you know how I feel you always have, you however have apparently never felt that, to you it was as you said “just a fling” for some reason to me It wasn’t, but I don’t want to talk about it as there’s no reason to now it wouldn’t change anything at all after all, what I’m saying is that I’m going to go away for some time I don’t really know for how long, hell I don’t even know if you ever read my blog?

If you do however I’m sure you know that this is meant for you if not then this is one hint

Do you remember cocorosie? And the time back then?

So I don’t know when I will be back maybe a month, maybe 10 who knows I just know I need some time

You have my phone number if you really need me I’m always there you know that.

~Mickey

So who reads this blog?

You know do you ever have that thing where you wonder about things?
Heres a question for anyone who reads the blog and do feel like you have to answer.
What do you do if you like someone your not sure likes you and who you have a past
history with that might have ended well or not ended well?

What would you do?

~Mickey

New upcomeing project.

I am currently working on a new story, while
thinking about what to do with my future.
so updates and cuts from the story should be uploaded soon!.

~Ren

Oh what a rare sight.

And as a lot of people i know are well aware of..
there are NO pictures of me on the internet at all...
Until now.. the first picture in a ever long time..
so Whatever what people think tbh.



~Ren

Part 2

from my earlyer poste i decided to finish it....
Some facts about me...
Yes i am a dom
Yes i do have a dominateing personality..
Yes I do highly prefer Submissive personalitys in girls since form experinces its the only thing
that i acturly fit together with... Not nameing any names...
I love computers
I love reading
I love cooking
I love writeing
I love games
I love girls
I love some cute guys aswell really
I really love a lot of things, and hate a few

I hate a girl i used to care about, she should know who she is if not she really is stupid
I simply hate the way she was aginst me at the end.. Something i doubt i can forgive.
But then agin i doubt she reads this blog anymore so what does it matter?

I hate getting stuffed Religion down my throat like religion is
and i hate people saying we have free will when its nothing but an air bubble...

More might come later

~Mic

A New Start To A New Dawn....

You know, people might look but never see, as so many do with me..
The simple fact that i seem like at first sight a confused, stupid person
becous i take less care of my hair, looks etc.. But when i say things thats
within my grasp, people are offen supriced by it and sutch proves that
looks is not evrything there is to a person...
Some people know this, like my closest friend Nicole, she sees who i am
and what i am with almost no hideing... People have really never seen my
true essence and whats within me.. Whats within me people see for a short moment
When im pushed to fighting, and then the fight normaly ends for the other person.
Its not something im proude of but its a simple fact.. And that is also the reason why i dont fight if i can avoid it...
Now for an entirely diffrent matter..
Im going to stop hideing who i am, what i think, and what i belive..
if people however can not deal with this then thats their issue...
More about this to come later, tho i doubt anyone reads my blog anymore...

~Mic

A teacher

YOu know things has tendencys to be strange, sutch as my new teacher
for some reason she reminds me of a 80 pinup model, its a posetive thing
not a bad thing, for some reason its her hair that reminds me, a rare thing

Back once agin

Finaly back on blogging
well yesterday school started agin
and well it was interesting...
for some reason there was a person who cought my eye
but idk how things goes, not well im sure lol.
and then today i woke up with a massive migrane.
and right now i feel rather stoned becous of 2 pills.
insted of the intended 1 that a person is allowed to take.
anyways im still alive so it shouldent kill me right now atleast.

~Mickey

Whew

God lately i have just felt so cheerfull :)
I cant belive it :D
I am acturly SMILEING! i know x.x clearly an improvement
Theres still elements i cant stand!
No dearest :) Its not you im talking about!
Gah its strange feeling this happy,
tho last night i was a little down while happy?
odd x.x :D
Anyways

Take care all

Here I am
I'm so young
Hey I am bitter
I've been jaded
Cause everyday
I bite my tongue
If you only knew
My mind was full of razors
To cut you like a
Worry from this song

~My Song byBrandi Carlile

Door

When one door closes, another opens
but we often look so long and so regretfully
upon the closed door that we do not see the
one which has opened for us

~Alexander Graham Bell

Super Size Me!

Today i decided to watch Super Size Me
A good movie! Kinda desturbing however...
If you havent seen it i suggest you do :)




~

Wtf air sex?

I loled rather hard today when i saw something called air sex
some show in austin texas! thers not mutch to say then here it is!

VIMBY - Air Sex

The world finals!

VIMBY - Air Sex World Finals

~

pf

Hm have anyone ever considered that we at times
acturly do things to hurt the ones we care deeply
about on purpose? Say things we know they will hate
Or things that will hurt them in some way?...
I think i do this acturly.. Why im really not sure
i suppose it might be becous its easyer then to be honnest
about evrything :/ and a lot easyer then to be honnest about emotions.
no one i perfect, and i sure as hell am far from it...
But its how i act at times..

A nother thing is...
I just watched "Hanging with the homeboys"
And thers something that i could relate to.
A guy who was in love with this girl and saw her
so fine and pure....
then he was out with the "boys" and they went in to this
peep show with the 3 friends, and he saw the girl he was
in love with was in that peepshow being fucked by a nother man..
I have tryed that. Not exactly that but the whole thing about
thinking someone might acturly be special, and then they are the
same as evryone els. but a nother thing is true that Maybe
i shoudent think any girl is special, as it normaly ends up with
a disapointment.... So whatever...

Fuck the world...

Hm

This friday i had an arguement with one i know...
The following night after i went to sleep i had
a intense nightmare... woke up not sure if it was
acturly a dream or not i had.
A rather interesting thing......
I dreamt that it stopped talking forever...
and idk... i really dont this time. Sigh :(
How can i feel so bad over something sutch as that?
Why does it truely bother me so mutch...
For some reason im not sure time will tell..
Has it ever? Or maybe its just a lie to my self?..

Whack-A-Kitty!

Ther nothing els to say then FML
heres a movie



~

Antichrist

Aparently a new movie came out not long ago, called
"antichrist" Made by a genius or a madman called Lars von Trier
From what i understood from previews the movie is so extreme
that people have puked doing the movie becous it became to mutch.
People have needed oxygen doing it simply becous they hyber ventilated
and passed out.... It seems like he is a modern version of Alfred hitchcock.
And aparently thers a sceen in the movie where a girl cuts off her clit!
and you see it! Argh!

Trailer



~

10 things you didn't know about orgasm

Today on my favorit Site/Blog
http://www.tinynibbles.com/index.php
I found this awsome poste called "10 things you didn't know about orgasm"
I must say i knew some of the things in it, as it has been talked about in theorys
more then once, if you want to know what it is then feel free to ask me lol!

Without further postponeing here it is!




~

Answer to life?

I was shown the perfect answer to what the goal in life is :)
I must say i can't agree more to it acturly...
It's something evryone wishes comes true to them
Heres the answer!!



~

Assignment!

7:12
ARGH i woke up to late!!!!!
PANIC! GEEZUS FUCKING CRIST!



8:50

LoL omg, i think i acturly managed to cheat
my english exam simply becous they their tech
guy who is APARENTLY! suppose to prevent us from useing correction etc. doing the exam, he fucked up, or maybe its just that i was a bit smarter then him? idk
it dosent matter, i see it as an open invite to cheating when it comes to this since he was the one who made the mistake not me! Am i wrong about that?
I dont think so atleast.....

10:30

The exam finished :)
Took me 1 houre 30min, it was a rather simply one i have to say. The overall theam was "Thank you for the music"
as some of you know thats also the name of a song by Abba. Something i found funny was i learned a new word actually, and the whole last assignment made me think of something that happend a year ago ( you know what ) and right now i feel kinda happy but a little sad at the same time. i suppose thats what happends at times like this :) Music truly is an amazing thing, it makes our emotions chance, it makes us recall things we thought we had forgotten, it can bring out the best and the worst things in people im sure. Im not sure what i feel right now. The only word i think will do is confused. Recalling things arnt always a good thing, and ironicly a song called Evning Chat is playing on my laptop right now, its beautiful. Im going to try and find it so i can poste it here on the blog... I atleast learned something from my midterm and used it today, i wrote less, a 1000 words to be exactly. god it felt like nothing at all compared to when i write for fun now, its a little ironic when i think back to 4 grade and i coud barely write 100 without going cold :) and now anything under 2000+ seems like a breeze :)
SHe might be right that i have talent, but still have a long way to go no doubt.

A new story

I today started on a new subject, its not opressed
by rules as my concrete jungle was, it is however a
simple thing of my own heart and mind...
The story has been named "The white dragon and the land on the other side"
more or less, it may change but for now thats the name or siad story...
compared to what the name might indicate it might not be like you woud think of it, however
that shall be revealed when the story is done, or the first few chapters atleast....
I will translate each chapter when its done and poste it here on my blog for people
who wish to read it....

~

Chaos theory

For some odd reason the last 3 weeks i have been thinking a lot
about the so called "chaos theory"as i tbh like the thought of it.
It helps me a little to take a step back, something i had lost sight of
as i used to be good at doing that tbh but the past 6 months or so
i lost that ability tbh... Sigh!
so i started chopping a lot of wood agin now, 100kg blocks of oak x.x
gah those take some time to chop down lol, but it makes me nice and sore
after so i sleep better and in the bigger picture its the right thing for me to do,
when you think about what im gonna be spending the next 3-4 months on!
Yes some people know what that is, others do not... if you want to know then you
coud try asking.. But im looking forward to it, i really am...
but for now, exams time sigh.....
today tomorow and wedensday, then after that thers the oral exam.......

~

Meet the

Time for some movies, Team fortress 2 movies to be more exact.....
And imo they are funny as hell so relax and have a laugh.....

Meet the scout:


Meet the sandvich:


Meet the sniper:


Meet the soldier:


Meet the demoman:


Meet the engineer:


And a newly released one thats more of a leak!
I present!
Meet the spy!:

http://www.gamingterritory.com/tf2stuff/siQz7yfT5Tc-high.mp4


~

Ugly Duckling

Something came to mind this morning
Todays youth is a lot like a older fairy tale
that was written by a famous writer
"H.C Andersen"Its called The Ugly Duckling
Some might know it :)
But for the ones that dosent know it its real simple
Its about this swane thats born in a group of ducks
its made fun of all of its childhood and it feels like it dosent belong
finaly it leaves the place, goes out in the world and and the fairy tale goes on
at the end after a lot of things its spring, and it finds it self to have evolved in to
a beautiful young swane white and godlike.

point being, our modern youth is like that swan
we all walk around blind and we might do so for a wile
until we figure out what we want with out life, what we want to
study, and what we want to do....
thers not the least thing wrong in this however, though a lot of people think
its not right.... life is a odd thing.

~

Dancer

I am a Degas dancer,
stopping before my preformence
to fix my blue sash
and wonder about danceing.

My shoes fits well,
I'm glad I'm here,
thought sometimes I ache
and have to rest

You won't be able
to see the ballet.
So judge me on how i stand
near the barre or tie my shoes.

If i do them well
then I am as great
as the greatest
of all dancers

~Julie O'Callaghan

The long awaited!

as quite a few of my friends have been asking me for i here present!
My exams project translated, however it was quite the job, and im sure
its not perfect but i dident bother to do more about it......
I hope you enjoy it!

Concrete Jungle By Mickey.A.C
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Concrete Jungle

It was a gray morning like any other. Peter was sitting again and looking out the window at the rain, that relaxed and unconcerned dripped down from the clouds, down on the streets where they made small puddles of water on the road and then ran down the sewers. You could see a longing look on Peters face, but if you could look closer at him it seemed like there was something he was missing in his life, though without knowing what it was.

Peter took his little black notebook up his pocket and started with a small pen to write “It’s amazing how quiet this concrete jungle can be at the early hours of the day, no roaring cars on the streets, life wolfs that howls against the moon, no people, busy as ants that’s only trying to make more money, because they think if they could only get the newest jacket, everything would get better. But oh how wrong they are on that subject, because simple things such as that isent what creates happiness, but then again what do I know about that?” And then put his notebook back in his back pocket again.

Looking at the notebook it seemed like it was worn down, maybe even a little old, as if had always had it on himself since the day he was born. He got up and walked over to his fridge, to see if there was any food in it, he found some bread and cheese, and started cutting slices of the cheese and threw it on the bread, not like it seemed as he was hungry but more like a duty he had to do to get it over with.

He sat down at the window again, and looked out at the gray weather, but there was now so slowly again starting to be people on the streets this rainy morning.

The sun looked up behind the huge building and left a Silhouette of a concrete jungles alleys, the man build colossus’s that was layer building after building and covered a area, that had no doubt once had a forest and a natural area, until humans had taken control of everything, every little branch and bush.”To think that humans really are that greedy, and yet we still see our self as the holy ones” Peter said to himself and then layd down on his bed to sleep a little now that the sun had slowly started to rise, since he had never been a day person. The sun had always annoyed his eyes, since he was a boy, so he closed his eyes and fell asleep.

While he was sleeping, he was having one of his normal bloody dreams, about humans that died one by one in the most brutal ways you could ever imagine. Right before he woke up he saw a pair of eyes that looked at him and then felt like he was falling down a bottomless pit. Peter woke up with a rush, and still had the feeling of falling in the bottomless pit. His heart was beating like it was trying to get out his chest.

He was sitting a little trying to relax and make his pulse calm down again. You could almost imagine that it wasn’t the first time Peter had that kind of dream, since he didn’t seem extremely shocked about it, but more annoyed about it, then anything else he was tired of, such small annoying things like this tormented him or maybe it was more that he didn’t have control over it, this fear of falling wasn’t something he normally something he was afraid of, and definitely not heights, but the feeling of that bottomless pit, as black as the darkest night without a moon to shine even the least. Slowly he started to return to the world of the living, you could see in his eyes he got less and less terrified, and looked slowly more like his normal self compared to since he woke up a little while ago.

He pressed the switch next to his bed and the small radio started playing a radio channel, some random music, it didn’t seem like he wanted to listen to it but did it more to break the silence in the little room while he calmed down the last bit and got back to his normal self.

Finally after a little while Peter got up to get dressed, once again Peter looked shortly out the window, out at the city from the small apartment was right under the roof, and saw the jungle, but it wasn’t in its quiet peaceful darkness as earlier, but bathed in neon light, cars and people filled the streets, as a river of lights that gently flowed by.

Peter took on his jacket, a gray thick jacket that looked rather worn down and found one of his smokes in a pocket as he walked out the door, and closed it behind him. When he got out on the streets he put it in his mouth, and lighted the smoke as he looked around as to see if anyone noticed him, and then slowly started walking down the street as if there wasn’t anything he had to do, but at the same time as if he knew exactly where he was going.

He walked down all the small streets and alleys in the city to avoid as many people as he could, he looked at all the small windows of all types, shops that sell people he thought to himself as he walked by a porno shop with 2 girls in the window, dressed in lingerie no doubt a lot of people would consider sexy, but it wasn’t something that caught his eye, he kept walking down the dark dimmed alley, it kind of reminded him of a cave, but he didn’t think a lot about it, and he once again stepped out in the concrete jungles light with the cars roaring like lions that hunts its pray. He turned around a corner and continued walked down the neon lighted street, which almost seemed surreal in the way that it was lighted, as an artificial day with black silk walls.

He went out on the main street again, but stopped to look around “you would almost think it’s a circus with all those colors” he thought to himself, relaxed and unconcerned he walked down the street and sees the people who stand on the corners. Cars in all colors and shapes, in a long trail as a snake that moves down the road…

Peter continues down the street and turns in to one of the parks that’s there “one of the last free havens, a green oasis in this concrete jungle” Peter thought to himself. The park was dark with only a few street lights to light up the path, there was a few trees and bushes but not enough to make the park resemble a natural area. “Why do we humans always have to change everything? Why do we always create everything in our own image? God, robots and everything else we have a chance to change” Peter wondered over again as so many times before.

He sat down on a bench in the park and let his head tip backwards, he sits like that a little and looks up in the dark night sky, it was black, beautiful and soft, like a blanket that wraps its lover, a few people came running by but Peter did bother to look up, he just heard their voices that slowly vanished again in the distance, as they moved away from him.

As he sat there on the bench, he couldn’t stop himself from drifting off in to another kind of world, more dreaming then awake, even in the cold air he could imagine how it must had been 300 years ago at that spot. Green forests, maybe a small creek while the sun had shined down on some beautiful nature before humans had corrupted and destroyed it all…

He was suddenly pulled back to reality, away from all the peace and quiet in his dream world when he heard an ambulance drive by, it wasn’t anything new with an ambulance, but it simply just made him curiosity follow the sound or more like where the sound was going. On the way towards the screeching sirens he passed an alley and thought about that there once was a girl that had been stabbed, without anyone had helped her, even though she had screamed out, but she had just been left there to bleed to death while the man walked away.

He finally arrived at the place where all the sirens where, he could see there was a fire in a house, both fire trucks and ambulances were gathered around the place, while they tried to stop it and get the injured people to the hospital. He stood there a little and looked at the fire, it almost looked like a firestorm now, while the fire fighters tried to get it all under control, but Peter didn’t wait and continued down the street towards his own apartment.

He went past a lot of small stores and people on the street, and when in to a seven eleven where he bought a beer, then he continued on his way home, but he didn’t enter his apartment, he instead walked up on the roof and sat down on the ledge and looked out over the city “ god how it’s a odd place we live now a days” he thought and took a sip of his beer and said with a sigh “ I just wish everything would be good in our society, without all the violence and hatred that’s in this world” he once again looked over the city and down at the sidewalk, you could see in his eyes that he seemed depressed, and as he sat there the sun started to rise in the distance with a lovely orange glow that warmed his soul.

He once again looked down on the street, on the other side of the street there was a young girl in a leaf green jacket, with a white bag and black jeans. He sat there and looked at her as the sun hit her hair, she was so beautiful he thought to himself, she looked like the girl he was in love with, but who didn’t want him.

With that thought he leaned over and fell toward the sidewalk with her in his thoughts as he moments later hit the sidewalk and everything turned black.

He woke up with a gasp next to his bed, with a confused look on his face, and then he crawled back up in his bed and sat there, lighted a smoke as he looked out the window. The weather was gray, and it was gently raining, drops of rain that dripped from the clouds, to create small puddles of water on the streets as the sun rises and created silhouettes of the buildings in the concrete jungle, Peter sat there in his bed and puffed on his smoke wondering “ What might happened today?”

~

...

staying within the law has it downsides
i just spendt most my money on bills x.x
stupid taxes.
I cant really rember what i have done this weekend.
i think i had some arguement with nicole aparently
and i think i acted like a idiot to rika. i wonder what els i have done?
Sigh i must say i feel really really depressed right now.
i dont see any good points in life tbh
and i dont see any reason for living...
im not sure what im going to do but i just had enough of life
i cant eat, i cant sleep, my head spins, my body hurts

i dont want to live........

~

hellfire

God right now it feels like my blood is on fire
i feel so mad for some reason, why idk
like my blood is boiling....
i seriusly need to get my emotions under controle
i need to sort things out, why does it bother me so
mutch? I cant controle what will happend but it botheres
me still, like sand running out of my hands thats how it feels
i hate it... I Hate it! geez why does it really bother me so mutch x.x
why does it effect me and makes me spin out of controle...
things will never be the same agin tho i at times wish they woud.

...Things Things

Hmpf most girls are sluts
they might act better then guys but are
in the end the same really...
This might piss of some people i know
but thats how it is then, why shoud i
keep a cloak around who i am? and
what i think of others?, If a girl or a guy
wants my respect its something they must earn
and prove they are either proude of who and what
they do or prove they arnt that way...
So far i havent met a girl who can prove it wrong....
and only few who has been abel to earn my respect.

Im gonna stop hideing who i am, if people cant deal
with who i am and where i come from its their issue
NOT mine... If people think i lie they can think that
Tho im NEVER a lier unless it has been to avoid hurting
someone i care about... so Whatever to most people!

~

1+1=22

1 man 1 woman = a boy thats now 22 aka me xD
god last night i got so drunk you woudent belive it
i coud barely walk x.X but i suppose thats what happends
when you drink drink drink go out throw up and then go back
and drink some more lol and i cant really rember a lot
but it feels like a new breath of air a cold shower of clarity
i feel that i see more clearly now
The girl i thouth i hated for a wile and still loved
i realize now i dont hate her the least but i am in love with her
maybe i shoudent be but to use a quote from save the last dance
"You don't chose who you love, your not suppose to.."
Its true we can't chose it tho we at times wish we coud but i
just don't think she has any kinda emotions for me not anymore
Time tells and people say Time heals all wounds tho thats not true

atleast its my birthday tho im not sure if thats a good or bad thing lol

Suicide

hn suicide is a strange thing
thers so mutch to think about
how, why etc
thers so many ways
and last but not least the normal questions people ask them self
Will anyone notice im gone?
Will anyone care about it?
Will anyone miss me?

~

Coco

Coco De Mer<3
Thers not anything els to say!

and now i bring you



Do you understand it?

I wonder

Hm i wonder if you still stalk my blogg?
I wonder how you are.
I wonder what your doing
I wonder if you wanna talk
I wonder a lot really.
I hope things work out no matter what

Poem

I, who was born to die
shall live,
that the world of animals
and the world of men
may come together.
I shall live.

~Inuit Legend

F for Future

F for Free
U for Unclear
T for Trying
U for Us
R for Recalling
E for Evolution
FUTURE

I found the dorm i want, In the heart of Copenhagen...
Its a real cozy place, small with a nice little window,
its cheap aswell around 2000 DKR, you share a kichen
but i like that a lot acturly as in what els woud the meaning
of living in a dorm? I think i woud love that place acturly,
Tho it woud only be for well hmmhm atleast 2 years xD
Thers all kinda people ther aparently, parents, young etc.
Who knows what life and the future will bring :)
Who knows who will be in my life
Who knows what will happend :)
Time will tell as its always been siad

And here last but not least is a pic of the apartment :)

Silverflame

This morning for the first real time in a long time
i smiled... God i feel so happy, so free so great!.
Its a feeling i cant rember when since i last felt,
being happy for no reason at all, just loveing life
heres a little poem i wrote with a special girl in mind
Im sure you can geuss as i told you about it yesterday

Kom hid, Kom hid du smukke fugl
Mens vandet drypper fra himlen blå
Så smuk, så smuk den lille fugl på grenen der
Sølv flammen brænder i natten så blå
Kom hid, Kom hid du smukke fugl
Lad vandet dryppe på dine vinger kom blot til mig
Lad natten skjule dig så du altid er sikker
Lad dagen omfavne dig som jeg ville og tørre dine vinger
Kom hid, Kom hid du smukke fugl
Lad livet kysse dit smukke næb
Lad vinden bære dine vinger som jeg ville
Så vær min, Vær fri, Vær dig selv du lille fugl

Shadow On The Wall

Todays weather is like my mood its been like that lately
or perhaps its my mood thats like the weather?
I dont know really. Nor does it matter tbh, today is
shitty weather and my mood isent too good either...
Thers acturly one song that describes how i feel perfectly,
I wish i had stayed home today to be left alone and not
bothered by any sutch things as i will today... my god
why dident i stay home -.-''
My knee is busted agin, my mood is down, and i dident
get the support i needed yesterday from the ones i needed it from......

Pilgrimage

I belive that all humans in one way or a nother once in their life
has a Pilgrimage.... Its diffrent for each person that lives on
this earth how theirs is and what they wish to gain by it...
truth is i have been thinking about takeing one... Im just not
sure yet and as thers long till my holiday i shoud make up
my mind by then. if not now then some other time in my life
im sure of it

~

you know

You know, We always say "Time will tell" :) It most likely will
But sometimes ther has to be done things about it, fresh starts
and so on, as in deleteing old things to clear the air, notting to
keep the old ties but create new ones insted. Ofcouse you cant
forget whats happend but what you can do is try and bring in
a future where neither worry about it :) And thats what i have done
Im sure time tells, we all just have to wait and see
So this is me getting a clean start with you if you want to?
I hope you do. No past Only future :)
So will you?

~

Small town city

Small town city...................
Good song

I read this amazing poem in school
its danish so i cant really translate it correctly
its about a regular man or well woman aswell dosent matter
they try and blend in, they dont want to show emotions they
dont want to fight but just ajust... Ironicly i used to want that
I used to want to be a robot, a regular man a part of the
mindless masses that swarm this earth like sheeps on a field
I havent even thouth of it lately until nicole pointed it out to me
that i used to be like that, more then others normaly woud like to.
And it made me think.... Ya its true i did used to be like that...
I wanted to blend in and not be noticed, just float along with the
other masses of people in this life.... No more tho....
I feel like im starting to live for the first time in my life,
I wont try and be a part of a black mass anymore, its not how it is..

Im me
I will let my actions define who i am
I will let my music define who i am
I will be alive
I will be myself

Manners

As most people know i see manners as a big thing
and im amazed how the simplest manners of people
are decaying and at the rate that its decaying.
Is it really that strange for guys to take a step
back and let a girl walk out the door first or let
a older woman have your seat? I have never seen it
before, yet for some reason tho i see it as a common thing
This morning i was getting in the buss, ther was a girl next
to me and i let her walk in first, i sat down when i was about
to get off the buss a older woman was getting out so the girl
at the window coud get off, i took a step and motioned with my
hand that she coud get out first, then the older woman was standing
back so i coud pass but i motioned for her to go first and then i stepped out
The girl for some reason smiled like a ray of sun for a simple thing as that
and it made me think, Is it really sutch a rare thing? for a guy to show manners
Is it something people acturly want or dont they care about it at all?
And in the future will it be those with manners who are seen as strange and
outcasts over those who wants to be first no matter the price or manners?
Life is a curios thing indeed and as it devlopes it dosent get easyer :)

~

Blood

So this morning i decided to sleep in late
what a curios choice now that i think of it
i missed the frist buss i was suppose to
take, then fine i went home agin and took the
next one and geuss who i ran in to... For those
who know me hey know some of my history with
my so called brother and the blood thats between us
well i ran in to him, and no blood was spilled belive it
or not :) we talked and aparently according to him
she is the one who lied about haveing siad anything like that
i dont really care right now, im not interested in spilling
blood and getting in a fight thats pointless, besides the guy
looked like he was shitting nails when he saw me....

~

Perfume

Hmpf! What is it with girls that are takeing
showers in perfume? It makes me want to
throw up seriusly! its like standing next
to a toxic cloude of death! Do they think
guys consider it sexy or something like that?
im not saying a girl shoud smell like a brute
that hasent showered ever but geez thers no
reason to make them self in to a cloude of perfume

~

Strange

Life is a strange thing no matter how you twist and turn it
things i find easy gets booring for me and i lose interest.
things thats locked in place bore me and i stop it all.
i need freedom more then others perhaps.
i suppose thats why i love writeing and makeing music
it gives me a freedom over what i wish to accomplish
it allowes me to push my limits and to create something
i can feel proude of, and if i dont like it i simply dont have
to show anyone at all but tug it away for my soul to keep
and gain wisdom from it...
School is advanceing as it shoud better even i suppose
as my teacher shows great support for my writeing and
even more so to my delopment within it and she wishes
for my to learn more then i already know so its a nice
new feeling......

On the personal levl i wont talk as i suppose its true
that some people are blessed in love and some in games
geuss what im blessed in?

Goodbye

Goodbye evryone
its simple im going away for a wile
i dont know when i will be back
or what will happend in the time im gone
i dont know if i will update the blog or not
depends on if i have time. i might or i might not
for most people it shoudent matter at all either

~

~

The movie "Igby goes down" is an amazing movie
Its a impressive movie, with a interesting view of
life... About love,hate, happyness, missery , death.
Evry good thing a movie shoud have and it leaves
you constatly thinking and wondering.
I can suggest evryone i know to watch this movie
it might be one of the most impressive ones i know.

We all live for the simple goal to die...
Thats the only thing we know for sure.
Evry thing between those 2 points will
always be a mystery for evry human.

Lately i have felt rather odd i must say
Not sure if im happy or sad...
Feeling a bit like a idiot i must say
What matters? Does this matter?

I wonder how the future will be
and i wonder why i worry so mutch
about trivial things sutch as that
and other stupid small things in life

So im just gonna go back to writeing
i think and try not to think about whats
happend in the past, or what will happend
in the future as i clearly must be a idiot x.x

~

Midnight~

What a wonderful moon, what a wonderful sun
We live as we want and things cant be undone.
It dosent matter who where or what as long as
we stay true to who we are and where we come from.
Woud it matter to you? Woud it matter to me?
Woud it matter if the night started where a nother
one ended?
I think at times it needed to take a step back and look
at the greater picture to get a feel for things..
As im gonna focus more of my writeing i think
and my music, aswell as school :)
since i saw a school i think i woud like most likely if i
coud ever get in to it that is but only time will tell :)

~

Late

Lol late for school tho i got to sleep 2 houres in since english was
called off becous the teacher was sick... Im kinda looking forward
to going to school however since i enjoy spending my time ther
writeing acturly. It takes my mind off things and off people, and
allowes me to focus on things that i shoud over silly things sutch
as emotions... Maybe i shoud do what evryone tells me to and just
stop talking at all to her? but then agin i dont know why....

and for the first time a personal message that you can feel free
to reply to here or on msn or not at all if thats the case...

Rika dont you think its a little strange that you say
you like talking to me about things that people normaly
woudent talk about, Freedom, Religion or other things
that requires people to have an open mind to really understand
and then you never say a word?you even siad that you
dident have anything to say to me some time ago, but
you wanted us to not block each other? Things like this
goes aginst my logical sens really its like saying 1+1=3
so if you want to acturly talk then you shoud say hi
sometimes aswell insted of letting me say hi, as that
is what people normaly do if they acturly want to talk.

And a last overall message to evryone....
Its common sens that if you talk to someone
you say goodbye before you leave or log off
anything els is just plain rude and lack of manners
therfor i suggest people think aboutt this for a little
and ask your self if your a rude person or not?

~

Meh

Thats a word thats not a word really but its suited for a lot of things
Meh... Today or maybe the last 24 houres has been Meh
I was suggested by my teacher to considering becoming a writer
as aparently i have a talent for it according to her and some friends
But Concrete Jungle will decide that If it becomes good and i get a A+
i will consider it as more then a childish thing If not i will move on to
something els and put it away as other things...
Thers a lot more i coud say about things thats happend
About people i suppose but i decide not to..

~

26 days later

Hmm tonight i saw a interesting quote on msn from a guy i know saying:
"The silence between two people who love eachother is worth more than a thousand words."
Its a interesting quote i have to say.... I wonder if you can really say its true tho?
As i think i have experinced it maybe i woud have to say its true.
Just becous 2 people dont say anything dosent mean that they have to.
Its a interesting thing indeed aslong as its not always silence.....

But i have to say after what happend last time with a girl i liked
im just gonna stay away from sutch things as i dont want to get hurt
once agin not right now atleast since i dont think she knows how it felt...
Past is past and we learn from it no matter how we see it and we are
effected by sutch things naturaly.....

~

The Midterm

Well today we had our first Midterm exam
a english one. It was more or less about Freedom
so it was a easy supject and after 4 houres i had
a 6 pages essay with 2509 words so overall
i think it might have been a good exams project
but i will have to wait some time before i will acturly know :)

~

What a day

What a day it has been today..
School was just amazing really
We had a lot of interesting descussions
about past history and human development
and it turned in to a now vs then kinda talk
and religion. it was truely amazing to see and do
Then well since i was an idiot and dident sleep last
night i wasent feeling good so i went home early....
And i had this strange dream with Rika in it lol,
Why im not sure but it was interesting...
But one of the top points of my day was talking to
Christy, we had a very enjoyerbel day and talked
a lot together about evrything more or less....
Past, current and future... And she gave me the
most amazing music! :D Im just so hooked on a song
called Bedshaped! its amazing really...

Also from those who read my blog knows that im
currently working on my writeing project Wolf
Well i as you know showed my teacher Chapter 1
last week and was waiting for a reply from her.
and then today in school i simply asked her if she
had read it? and she had, and aparently im the 3 one
in 35 years that she has suggested to write a story
for my finishing exams project, the one that will
decide my final grade.. And i even started thinking
about what to write today.. I have a small idea now
but its still a work in progress afterall. im gonna
make updates here as i go along with it :) even translate
some of it if people want me to as it has to be in danish sigh

Thers more i shoud write im sure but i cant recall anything

~

AfterWorld

Wow I have just seen the most amazing thing ever
A story/ Picture Show Called Afterworld.
Its about the story after the world as we know it
and the social status decays after some incident that
leaves the world shattered..... Its a new type i have
never ever seen before and i find it interesting acturly
So im gonna have to get it so i can watch the last ones :)
But it acturly gives you something to think about.
And knowing people i have no doubt that if something
happend our currently world woud decay and we humans
woud devolve more then we already are....
Think about it? We evolve on some points and devolve at
oather points, its human nature im sure but i still find it strange

~

Stupid taxes

Hmh I find it desturbing that our current goverment
wishes to raise taxes by a nother 20% on some products
Sutch a tobacco and grees items, butter, cookies etc
And then even doing the current crisis, people are already
struggeling with some things bills etc.
Im quite curios however how things will evolve.
I understand why they wish to do so but i however think
its a bad time to do it right now as it will effect a lot of people
Working class mostly.....
But then agin it might teach people a lesson aswell
Time will tell

~

....

This morning i felt really strange,
i felt sad but happy at the same time
as a feeling of senslessness if you
wish to call that. And i suppose that
it might have something to do with the
rather confused look my teacher gave
me yesterday when she asked me why
i was only writeing in english and not
danish, well the reason for that is
simple, im better in it and i think
it sounds better, allowes more words
i suppose you can say atleast for me.
Is this what the world has comed to?
To a generation whos mother laungage
is replaced by not their own but by
a global one sutch as english or some
oather contry? For the reason to be
more global and for more people to
understand a simple message. And if
so shoud we be worryed about sutch a
trivial thing? Or isent it trivial at
all?Also what might she say about the
short story i send her last night, or
well it was the first chapter in one
the one called "Wolf" Will she like it?
Will she hate it? Or maybe i shoudent even
care about what she thinks as it....?

But it seems no matter what my music
is like a soothing tidalwave that rushes
over me and takes away all my worrys and
all my sorrows in a single rush on coldness.

Tonight im for some reason feeling kinda down
kinda sad for no reason at all, and its killing me
i shoud feel happy yet i dont, i have been writeing
in my Wolf Chapter 2 all day and its been comeing
along nicely but it feel like the further i develop the
story the stranger i feel, its like im putting some of
my self in to that story and after a day like today
i just feel lost in darkness..... it makes me feel depressed
That thers no light right now, not even a smal hint of it...
I wonder a lot what i shoud do to feel better but notting
comes to mind at all except that maybe i shoud just keep
writeing it and see where it takes me, if it woud make me
feel better, or maybe even worse only time will tell i suppose..

~

Truth

Its true indeed whats siad about people
That we find the truth in the darkest houre
when we feel lost and in despair we offen
find things that are very true to who we are
and what we must do to move forward in life
We all feel lost at times, we walk in darkness as
a lost child, a blind person trying to find our way
Truth be told i think i found my way today
What i need to do before i do anything els in life.
And after talking to Nicole it all feels a little more
Well i feel more relaxed about evrything :)

~

Humpf

Right now we acturly have about poems
and i think about considering to tell
that i write poetry but no one here
woud understand why, or surely belive
that it woud be true even if i decided
to show them some i dont think they woud
understand the real meaning to them as
they are not the normal type people read
And people here dosent even understand the
most simple poems we read here, Sigh i just
cant understand how simple things sutch as
this can be hard to understand for people.

Great!
She told us for tomorrow we have to write
a poem about Love..... Im gonna fail that as i
wont do it i refuse to tbh.. its something i prefer
to want to forgot about really, and even if i did
its not anything i woud wish to read for the class
standing in front of them reading from something
thats very personal just feels like something
they dont deserv to be a part of.....

~

siigh

Hmm today when i went to the dentist, i got a tooth pulled
it was a new dentist i hadent met before, and as some know
i hate dentists and they scare the shit out of me but however
insted of getting antibiotic he siad "Why dont we just pull it out now"
And i was like hmm sure why not for once, and i realised
i have to stop being sutch a bitch at times, stop complaining about things
Shut up and take the pain as it comes. Work more on things i want
Things i know i can stick to, and currently that is not school!
I stopped careing what people think a wile ago after something that happend...

~

Sigh

Evrything is just going great lately...... Not
I feel like sutch a idiot tbh. i wonder if she has any idea
how it feels to feel this for someone and not being abel to do anything
and when the feelings arnt the same aginst you dosent make it easyer at all
Then thers school.... And now my tooth.. I wonder what els coud go wrong?
Something i bet x.x right now im not sure what that posserbly coud be.....
So once agin i almost wonder if thers a reason for sutch things?
For being unlucky your entire life
Im really not sure what i shoud do lately...
What i shoud do in the future or what i shoudent do, i mean does it realy matter in the end?

~

My tooth

Goddammit! >.< My tooth seriusly hurt
and its not just any tooth its the one i neeed surgery to get removed
and thers just something about getting cut open in my mouth
that i dont like the idea about... Not a lot scares me when it comes
to sutch things but dentists sure as hell is one of them x.x
but i think doing the next few days i will get used to the pain.
As a great quote once siad:
Master Chief John Urgayle: Pain is your friend, your ally, it will tell you when you are seriously injured, it will keep you awake and angry, and remind you to finish the job and get the hell home. But you know the best thing about pain?
Lt. Jordan O'Neil: Don't know!
Master Chief John Urgayle: It lets you know you're not dead yet!

I know its from a movie but its a good quote anyways
But lately i realised some things that can't keep on going
like they do, some things must change... And they will..
in a little time they will change, over time they will change even more..
And i will be back to square one where i started before all the feelings
came in to play 3 years ago...
For those who knows me very well shoud know what im on about...

~

Gloves.....

You know for some reason my gloves looks like
i have been in a damm knife fight, all slized and torn
kinda reminds me of my self lately, of how i feel tbh.

Yesterday a girl in my class was like
"where the hell do you get all those money from?"
Why the hell is evryone so curios about that?
If i make money its my buissness how i make them
people shoudent ask since they dont like the truth
always. they might think they do but they really dont

~

Can't Smile Without You

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything

You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm goin' through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who'da believed that you were part of a dream?
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything

You see, I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm goin' through
I just can't smile without you

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well I'm finding it hard leavin' your love behind me

And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm findin' it hard to do anything

You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm goin' through
I just can't smile without you...

Wolf Chapter 1

I know i siad i woud show you first nicole :) but i kinda forgot last night
so im just gonna poste it here now and i hope you will tell me what you think

The boy briefly stopped up to catch his breath, but as soon as he heard the howl of the beast not far from him he knew he had to keep going if he wanted to live for a few more hours..
He starts running agin he feels his heart pulsing, it feels like it will jump out his throat any moment but it doesn’t matter he has to keep going, he falls down when he trips over a rock that sticks up the ground….
He feels a sharp pain in his leg he doesn’t want to look down as he feels the blood running down his leg already, he gets up agin and feels that he is having a harder time standing on it but it doesn’t matter.
He knows if he doesn’t start moving agin he will be dead either way, so he starts moving aging not as fast as before but atleast he keeps on going for a little wile agin.
But it dident matter soon he heard the growling behind him even closer, he tryed to run faster but his weakend body and wounded leg woudent allow him to, a second after the creature is over him, he feels how the fangs of the beast gets a firm hold on his right shoulder and he screams out in pain.
He struggles and tryes to get free but its no use as the beast got a firm grip in him, and in terror he realizes that he his time is over, not by old age neither any heroic deed, but at the hands of this beast, and then he feels the beasts teeth rip up his throat and everything goes black……..

Early next morning in a small town nearby a young boy wakes up in a barn and to his horror he notices he is covered in blood, what horrors might have happened last night he wonders as he feels a strong metallic taste in his mouth and breaths heavily so he won’t pass out…
A little after he slowly gets up from the hay and sneaks outside to wash off the blood from his face and body, feeling a pain in his chest as his heart was trying to jump out his mouth it beating so fast... So hard and then he is overwhelmed by this new feeling for him, as if he had gotten stronger or if something had changed him since yesterday when he went to sleep…
He sneaks home and finds some cloth, luckily the house isn’t far away from where he had woken up but on his way home he starts to think about how he possibly coud have ended up in a place like that doing that night and where all the blood might had come from? All questions he has no idea about but can’t help to wonder still.
He manages to sneak in his parents’ house and in to his own room without anyone noticing and snuggles in to his own bed where he calmly falls asleep hopeing to get a little clarity and peace for a wile at least. A few hours later his mom comes in and wakes him up by whispering in his ear that it’s time to wake up, and mumbles “good morning mom” with a cute smile on his face, and she kissed him on his head saying “slept well?” And he nods sleepy and sits up covering his eyes from the sunlight as she leaves the room to go make lunch for the family.

Only Skin

This morning wile waiting for the buss ther was a
litle girl, shes the sister to a friend of mine acturly..
But it made me think, woudent you wish you coud
turn back time sometimes? Just go back and be a
child agin? Be innocent once agin without all
the bad things you have seen or experinced?
I really think evryone has been thinking that
at times, just be innocent once agin in your life.
I can honnestly say i woudent, no matter what
has happend in my life im acturly kinda happy
it did as i have learned things from it no matter what
If you get hurt, you learn to deal with pain.
If you get heartbroken you learn to cry and heal agin
If you fall in love you learn to show feelings to oathers
If you lose people you learn about sorrow and life

So no matter what i woudnet change anything i have
learned in the school we can call life :) as they are all
valid things people need to know to live in this world

scrape your knee; it is only skin


~

Logic vs fate vs feelings?

Today when i had my tv on ther was acturly some
teen romantic kinda series called Felicity...
And wile watching i started thinking if thers
sutch a thing as fate?
Shoud we depend on logic?
shoud we depend on fate?
shoud we depend on feelings?

Its basicly what shoud we depend on it life mostly?
Thers love that can be the best or the worste thing in life
depending on with who and how it happends..
And maybe thers fate? Maybe some people are fated to
be hurt and betrayed by evryone around them their life?
But for what i wonder.. Maybe thers no sutch thing as fate...
Maybe some people are just really unlucky when it comes
to things in life around oather people, maybe some shoud
stick to studying and working on makeing some things better
for oather people and just not worry at all about anything romantic.
I know some people might think i sound "emo" beocous of this
but its not ment to, its ment to be realistic and logical about
not worrying about love or feelings at all, but focus on life insted...
And it seems most people handle things diffrently some people
get emotional when they are around people they love...
Some get logical and tell them self that its all just passing things.
And some might think its fate :), Truth be told is that it dosent
really truely matter what you think it is, it matters that your partner
accepts how you react and that you accept how they react.. They might
get scared, sad, mad, happy or strange... What matters is that you stick
by them :) support them the best you can in any way posserbel really
Dont get mad at them for being them self.... Give them time to ajust as
they might never have truely experinced something sutch as that..
Life is an amazing thing :) we can all experince pain at times :)
and most of us lives with it tho it hurts..
And im a person who well i belive in fate on some points :)
If 2 people are fated to be together they will be some day 1 day or 100 years.
On oather points in dependent on logic, Fights, Friends, school or games.
And last feelings is wired in to a lot of things all depending on who and what :)

So Life is a funny things and people related to it aswell with those 3 things
combined humans becomes a funny thing really....
Thers more i wanted to say no doubt but i forgot it right now :/

So all i can say is goodbye for now And try and think how you are?

~

Skipping school?

Today i decided to skip school
Im no doubt gonna get in a HUGE arguement
But you know what? Its worth it for staying in school
Since i have about 100 math assigments i need to finish
Thats 3 papers and besides that 50 pages i need to read
And the only thing i woud be missing out on is Danish and English
And when i clearly dont need either of them i geussed
that i might aswell stay home and study for the
"Greater Good" lol nah really it seems
like the best and most logical choice today
How oather people might see it is up to them
But its my choice when it comes down to it
in the end and only me it will backfire on
So no one shoud have an issue with it really?

~

Art of blocking?!

You know if your acturly gonna block someone
avoid them ignore them etc.
The first thing you need to keep in mind is
Do it correctly..... Msn,Skype,Aim,Yahoo
all adresses that linkes the 2 of you together...
If you have shared phone numbers turn off your
phone if you dont wish to talk to them...
But dont come around acting like you want to
Like you want to talk or talk about things
As thats a plain cruel thing to do to people
Show some pride! Dont be a jerk!

Always do what your doing perfect if posserbel...

And a Quote from Al pacino in Heat

"Don't waste my motherfucking time"

But i aint trusting that guy agin

~

School!

God dammit school sucked today!
The wireless internet were down -.-''
So i coudent read or anything when i dident have
things to do but atleast i got some stuff written in "Wolf"
a small novell im working on makeing :) or a short story
you can decide what you want to call it i just call it fun *^_^*
I might poste it as soon as i have written a little more to it :)
Tho im not sure how good it is, it dosent matter a lot afterall

Then ther was 2 girls omg i just wanted to throw something at
them they were so annoying!!! They always are but today more
then normal really. They ended up talking about some girl who
had plastic surgery done to her becous she thouth she was flat
chested.... Honnestly i dont get why a girl has to have big boobs?
I prefer them smaller tbh... Not too big! And then one of them
was like well maybe she shoud get a liposuction... And shes already
skinny.. what more woud ther be to suck away? her ass? xD
So i decided to skip school and go home agin since i wasent feeling well

And on my way home i dozed off and had this strangest dream xD
It was on my blog and nicole presented me with a black box
and it being hafe open with a red and pink ribbon sticking out of it
and when i opend it ther was a pink cupcake in it O.o
it just proves CUPCAKES RULES!... Really the strangest dream ever lol

And it was only like a 5min doze tops so its not a real dream geuss im
just hooked on cupcakes X.x

~

Hmm?

A wile ago i was talking to one of my closest friends Nicole
and since i was wondering how she saw me and how i was
i simply asked her and here is what she siad:

"And you're very positive, mostly. If you get upset, which isn't that often, you become really upset.
And you care deeply for the ones you like, and not at all for the ones you don't"

I geuss im not that complicated always :) as she is no doubt the one
who knows me very best in the world i might think :)

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Friends

Well friends are a funny things...
And for some people building friendships are even stranger...
IF you need to build a friendship or rebuild one with a friend
its something both have to give to not just one of them...
thers always things that will be and ther wont be...

But no matter what thers always gonna be close ones that supports you
Nicole: Thanks sweety for always staying by my side and slapping me when i need it
Polly: Your always cheering me up and never judgeing me :)
Jessica: you never keep things from me and your always honnest yet gentle :)
Jen: Your my twin thers not a lot to say but Your like my long lost sister :)
Jay: my super cute bi friend :D alwayz had fun with you ^-^

And a lot of more people :)Thanks guys for supporting me in hard and good times


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Deuces

Whats life for you?
What matters for you?
This is something we shoud all ask out self at times
What we want with life?... What we are willing to do to get it
And if evrything fucks up that we have a backup plan...

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Deuces is wild, this is pitty pat
Two-two, with the triple fat goose
You, you ain't never placed a bigger bet
You, you ain't never seen a bigger threat

Deuces is wild, getting milli' off a bag of illy
Iced out, on the sand like a chilly willy
You, you ain't never placed a bigger bet
Deuces is wild, this a triple threat

In the world that's been frozen, they come be Achozen
Rising from the dead, over throw the opposing
Forces of evil, controlling our people
Deuces is wild, and the wisdom is lethal

4-22, stomping through, I can see you
Strike a match, like the sun, watch the preview
Life is a game, play war, don't refuse to
Three is the few, and life we are true too

This is how I'm fully taught, fuck what you really thought
Nine milli' pops ya top, silly pop
Like your colon cap, ice like the polar cap
Jar of Israeli drop, so clash and feel me rap
Yo phantom power, my answer will strike the power
The truth is of what you write, and what ya'll recite the power
Is how I spit, my night to this very time, an hour
with just a spec, of light, we shine, shine, shine, shine, shine

Must be Achozen...
Must be Achozen...
Deuces is wild, this is pitty pat
Deuces is wild, this is pitty pat

You a force, I can see right through you
We Achozen, we come here to free you
So you can live in this world like we do
Achozen few from the outclassed people

Butterfly

Wonderful butterflys fly around her bed
Red, blue, green.. all the colors of the rainbow
they cover her skin makes her look like something
truely special a one of a kind person in this world......

I wonder sometimes why things are like they are?
Why i at times dwell at the past?
Think about how things might have been
Insted of thinking about what is....
And not just be happy with what happend

Hmm i suppose its becous we are humans
we all want things sometimes and if they
arnt like we wanted them to be we want
something els? something more....
I wonder if people will ever change?!?


Why do I miss someone
I never met, with bated breath I lay
Seawinds brought her to me
A butterfly, mere one-day miracle of life
And all the poetry in the world
Finally makes sense to me

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Life?

Life is like a tree
we are all born from the same seed
we live and grow...
At times we get cuts and bruces
but they heal as long as we can manage to get the nail out
We cant always so it stayes in us but we still learn to live
and we keep on growing until the day our roots die and
we die with them as its the way of life...
Whats good about life is that we sometimes cast off pods
of seed and new trees will group up around us and its wonderful
we learn to live with whatever might happend to us if we are strong
So life is like a tree a wonderful one we all cherrish to the end.....


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1+1= 6

Wow what a night......
Its been a long time since i had anything that good
Girls
Alcohol
Pot
Friends
What more can you ask really?
Well what was! was good *^-^*
Got in to my friends place laughed a lot
had a lot to drink and a pizza and a lot of compliments
went on to a nother friends place at his own pub...
and then down to a nother pub after that where we
had even more to drink had some pot and partyed like never before
also it seems what i finaly found a way to move to copehagen
as a girl i know seems to want to move ther aswell so we talked about getting a
fairly big one and shareing it, shareing the rent etc so it will be good no doubt...
Not sure what els to say so to finish it heres a quote *^.^*

From the movie savannah 1991..
Her: "Please take me with you"
Him: "Now i know why you alwayz seem so sad"

Sutch a sweet movie :)

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I think i might be a little stupid at times

Tonight i realised how stupid i can be about common things oathers take for granted
I can realise things no one thinks about, think about the strangest things ther are
and yet never understand why some things are the way they are...

Take for an example tonight what i realised about realtionships -.-''
or well it wasent tonight it was yesterday or so....
For a relationship to work you need to show your partner from the start
who you are, dont try and be who you think they want you to be but just your self
this is the key to a long term relationship im sure. For your partner to accept who
you really are from the first moment, if they want you to be like that they will take you
if they dont like that way you wont get hurt nearly as mutch as you realise that they arnt
the one for you.... So be your self and not some mirror immage of what someone els might want
or like..

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Dammit!

Damm for once i woud like for my family acturly to decide
to support me in my own choices -.- .....
The simple fact that our free will is the only thing no one
will ever be abel to take away from us in this world is a
interesting thing to think about we decide what we want
out from the way we think and consider things....
And yet you can alwayz be effected by small things or suggestions
in your life, from people you know, things you read or watch...
A person can also have hobbys however this does not mean that
its something they wish to work with for the rest of their life?

People are interesting they always have and always will be i suppose
Thers diffrent kind of people however...... And i suppose that thers
always a risk opening up to people aswell in the fear of getting hurt.

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The cage

I feel it rippes my soul
the chains tighten as
the best stuggles to
get free. it growls in
anger trying to take over
a constant struggle of
peace and anger
Good and evil
the cage shatters and
the chains breakes
as the beast surfaces
and i release my sanity
for a short moment before
the blood spills to the ground
and a battle of minds start once agin